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"Scars are little reminders for us that the past was real"
For as long as I can remember, which isn't very long (ha!) I have been a reflective person. I love looking back on what I was thinking, doing, or feeling at a certain point in my life. This means dusting off old diaries, pondering my pictures, and more recently rereading the blog I have kept for a year and a half. I guess you could say I facsinate myself.. okay that is another joke, but seriously. I have been home for a year now, and I think I am doing well (clearly it's all about me today), I am back at school, I am meeting new people, and tending to push myself in a more positive direction. So while I still reflect, I am curious whether this is a help or a hinderance. I get stuck in ruts sometimes thinking about the past, but more and more I think that to acknowlege it makes me more authentic now. This involves everything, the good, the bad, the ugly, the funny, the sad... a balance you could say. Then, as I acknowledge and remember, I may also forget. I can let it go and hope that I have learned from it in some way and enjoyed it.
This is not to say however, that I will ever let go of the past completely. The things that mean the most to me will always remain close.
Right now I am looking forward to more coffee breaks, the strike giving me time to get my work done, friends, family and laughter. Oh, and spring weather.
posted by Joy @ 10:37 PM
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I forgot to mention that I also started a music blog. It will consist of song lyrics that catch my attention, or that I find fun or interesting. You can find the link under 'others'.
There are definately things from our past that seem to want to cling to us. Sometimes I'm not sure if they're clinging, or I am. In the majority of cases, if I really think about it, it's not the memory that lingers, it's the pain of what happened. Yes, usually it's the bad stuff that remains...festering within us and draining us. I tend to think that it's very important to take those memories, and whatever feelings they may have left with us and turn them into something new, something positive. Right now, I can feel the pain from a lot of different things if I focus on them and if I turn them around, I can use that energy to push myself forward in life. Take it by the scruff of the neck and put it to work for you, so to speak. :)
Ahh, I'm off on another rant...hopefully not too boring. We'll get together and have a chat about it Joy. Perhaps we can help shed some new light on it for each other. Seeya.
Hi i was gonna post but decided to email instead , topher
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